day 9..

today is a picture of your night. and usually this would consist of a picture of me and my friends but becaues my life has taken a turn for the worst, this is a picture of me and my sister at the hospital. we pretty much just sit here and try to find something to do between the poking and millions of dr.'s coming in, all we have done is played piano and gone outside for a while. i'm kinda getting sick of being at the hospital but i don't have a choice. my sister is being so good about it, but i don't know how she is doing it. i wanna just be home and have everything back to normal, but i know that it won't happen. can i just cry it all out? i wish. i wanna be with my friends and be home with my family, and go to school. don't know what is going to happen this next year and that is whats killing me the most. we don't have a plan. for me to function i need to have a plan, but also a plan that i like. i don't like the plan we are on right now. everyone is just saying take it one day at a time, but i literally can't! but i also can't think of the future because it makes me sad, and i have to stay strong for my family. don't really know what to think anymore, but i just know i want to be with my sister, and never want to leave her again. but anyways sorry if you sat there and read that cuz it was practically me venting. so sorry, but here is the picture of my night, and it will continue to be my night for a while.